The Stars at Night Are Big and Bright

Sooooo….Luna has a virus and has been running a fever for 3 days now. She has not slept at night, therefore I have not slept. I also started running this week (along with P90x3) to prepare for the Mud Run and Warrior Dash. My body is so so so tired, as is my mind. I just spent a very long time writing a very long blog all about Texas, my shameless Texas pride and the reasons I left Texas for probably ever. I said things like “the armpit of Texas” and other negative things about my hometown. Then, I explained how leaving gave me a brand new perspective and respect for the place that molded me into the ball of sunshine I am today. It was a lovely post.

Then, my computer died and my post was forever lost. The above paragraph was the best I could do to recreate it. Now, just enjoy these beautiful pictures of the place that will always be “home”. Then, pretend you just read something enlightening, witty and a little humorous.

The whole family together; a rare occasion.

The whole family together; a rare occasion.

Playing washers under the restaurant on the water...Texas style.

Playing washers under the restaurant on the water…Texas style.

Sweet sweet girl loving on my Luna.

Sweet sweet girl loving on my Luna.

Playing at the park

Playing at the park

Luna dressing up in a fancy vail at her Honey's shop.

Luna dressing up in a fancy vail at her Honey’s shop.

My nephew chasing a duck in the local park.

My nephew chasing a duck in the local park.

Cheers

Enjoy the Small Things

Why is it so hard to get back to a routine after vacation? We drove back from Texas Monday night (12 long hours) and all three of us still seem to be off kilter. I have so much to write and share that I feel I’m bursting at the seems, yet at the same time I am finding anything else to do to keep me from writing. So far, I’ve cleaned my makeup brushes, the inside of my fridge and organized our Tupperware cabinet. Anyone else see anything wrong with this? Sometimes, there’s just so much to do that not doing it at all seems to be the best option. However, my house now seems to be all organized and clean and Luna, who is running a fever, is now happily bouncing in her walker, so I’ve got no more excuses.

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I took the photo above while playing in the sprinkler with Luna and my nephew Micah in Texas last week. When I was little, playing in the sprinkler was one of my favorite things to do. It gets sooo unbelievably hot in Texas. You cannot understand the relief of a cold sprinkler or a southern snocone unless you’ve survived a Texas summer. Taking Luna and Micah through the sprinkler and watching their Grandparents play in the water with them brought so much joy to my heart. As did the delicious “Queen Elsa” snocone.

Playing with Daddy

Playing with Daddy

Traveling, wild adventures and spontaneous trips are awesome, but sometimes it’s the little things that touch your heart, bring back memories and make you feel so grateful. Our time in Texas was too short and too quick, but it was packed full of simple moments of bliss.

Like my nephew going down a slide for the first time and every single one of us cheering him on!

Like my nephew going down a slide for the first time and every single one of us cheering him on!

I want Luna to have an adventurous spirit as she grows up, but I hope she also takes time to enjoy the small things… the way the wind whips through her hair on a swing, the smell of the ocean, the warmth in her PawPaw’s hugs and especially the southern sunsets.

Taking Luna to the beach I visited so often while growing up...

Taking Luna to the beach I visited so often while growing up…

Enjoying Starbucks with her Honey

Enjoying Starbucks with her Honey

A Texas sunset...via my Instagram

A Texas sunset…via my Instagram

Cheers!

When Your Friend is Sad

I realize it’s a little late in the blogosphere to be writing about Robin Williams, but I’ve wanted to post this for a few days now and I’m finally getting the time to share. I’ve dealt with depression a little throughout my life, but I’m thankful I had mild cases that were easily controlled with advice from my doctor and exercise. Like the rest of the world, the death of Robin hit me like a rock in the chest and has left me with heartache and many many questions. A couple of days ago this insightful video came out and in a matter of minutes answered some of my difficult questions.

The video below, which I hope you all take a couple of minutes to watch, is vital information for anyone going through a hard time or anyone who knows someone going through a hard time.

For me, this video reminded me of the difficult weeks following Luna’s birth. The advice this man gives is exactly what I needed. I needed someone to sit with me, not judge, not offer advice, just be there… holding space. Glennon over at Momastary has often written about “holding space”. She says that sometimes people don’t need you to do or say the right thing, because there is no “right thing”, but what they need is you, there, holding space, without offering advice or expecting anything.

It’s especially important to know that someone is going to be at your side, holding your hand, entering back into the world with you. Just knowing you are not alone is HUGE. I think these tips apply to friends who are depressed, sick, mourning, going through a bad breakup or anything that has them down and out. It may be short-lived, it may last for months or it maybe on an off for years. As a friend, our job is to be there and remain there, present for the happy times as well as the bad times.

I only wish I would have known how important these behaviors were years ago. I apologize to friends who needed me there holding space and sitting patiently at their sides in the past. I hope I forever remember what I needed in my time of pain and give you all the same in return.

Cheers from you friend,
Hilarie

Half-Crunchy Mom Giveaway Winners!

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Wow. So, when I say I’m going to announce the winner to one of my giveaways on a certain day someone should really hold me to it. We drove through Tuesday night to get to Texas early Wednesday morning and I’ve been having so much fun getting to see family, friends and my little nephew that I’ve yet to even update my Facebook status. So, sorry about the late post! Also, my parents don’t have Internet so it’s very easy to “unplug” here.

Ready to find out the lucky winners of Goddess Garden’s Kid’s sunscreen? Me too!

Angie (winner of the 6oz bottle)

My son is 9 and we have an extremely difficult time finding something for his face that doesn’t sting. I would love to try this!!

BriAnn (winner of the 3.4oz bottle)

Claire is 9 months. She loves being outside. Finding good sunscreen that actually works is not so easy. Would love to try this brand.

Congrats ladies!!! To claim your prizes just email me (positivelypanicked@gmail.com) your mailing address and I’ll get those prizes out ASAP. And, by ASAP I mean in a week or so because I’m still on vacation in Texas.

Luna sporting her new sunscreen while enjoying the sunny deck.

Luna sporting her new sunscreen while enjoying the sunny deck.

Hopefully, I’ll get back to everyone soon. So many southern adventures to share!

Cheers!

P.S. BIG thank you to Goddess Garden for being such an awesome and generous company!

Girls Weekend!

I decided to take a couple of days off from the blog to spend a girls’ weekend with Luna, my Mom and one of her co-workers in Atlanta for the Apparel Market. My Mom owns a formal wear shop and she was making her orders for prom 2015. After my two fantastic days off I came down with mastitis again. That little devil of an infection had me down for another two days. Now, I’m finally feeling human again, and I am so happy to be back to share all about our girls only adventure in Atlanta! (BTW, this is my first time to open my laptop in 4 days. I feel like I’ve just been through some sort of intense detox.)

Find many more pics like this form daily life on my Instagram!

Find many more pics like this form daily life on my Instagram!

Mine and Luna’s trip began with a 4-hour road trip. I planned to leave early in the morning so Luna would be sleeping, but she decided to stay up half the night. After putting her back to bed for 5th time at 3am I was wide awake and figured 3am is a pretty swell time for a long drive. I got dressed, packed up the car, kissed Husband good-bye as he slept soundly through every single cry, grabbed Luna and hit the road. (We made a couple coffee pit-stops on the way.) We jammed to Katy Perry, Taylor Swift and Iggy Azalea most of the way there because who else do you listen to on a girls’ road trip?

Mom and Alex enjoying some delicious beverages during a fashion show

Mom and Alex enjoying some delicious beverages during a fashion show

We made it to Atlanta just in time to join my Mom and our new friend Alex as they headed to Americas Mart in downtown Atlanta. My Mom’s goal was to find the hottest new trends for next year’s prom. Our girl was to help and enjoy all the treats, goodies, drinks and attention that comes with attending a wholesale market. I’ve been to market and Dallas a few times, but holy cow, Atlanta’s Market is SO MUCH NICER. The building is nicer, the showrooms are bigger, the fashion shows are better, the food is fantastic, the drinks are endless and even the people are incredibly friendly. Plus, everyone treated Luna as if she was America’s Next Top Model.

America's Mart, 13 floors of apparel and accessories

America’s Mart, 13 floors of apparel and accessories

macaroons for days!

macaroons for days!

I’m a sucker for anything free so I happily accepted tote bags, tees, flip-flops, cookies, margaritas and whatever else they threw my way all day long. The only downside was carrying around my loot all day, especially since I also had to carry Luna (“no strollers allowed”) and her over-sized diaper bag. During one fashion show, Luna got fussy so I stepped outside the glass walls to watch the show from the hall. As I bounced Luna up and down to the beat of every pop song that played over the loud speakers we ran into another adorable baby girl. The Mom and I started chatting and overtime I learned that the other adorable baby is the granddaughter Sherri Hill,  of the designer we were currently watching. Luna and I ended up getting to know the granddaughter, the daughter and the designer who were all incredibly nice.

Sherri Hill, Luna, myself, Mom and Alex

Sherri Hill, Luna, myself, Mom and Alex

I have never ever been anywhere were so many complete strangers complimented, played with, touched and literally took Luna out of my arms. Every single person seemed to be baby deprived or depressed because they could not get enough of Luna. She was the center of attention all day and even scored a new bracelet from the Chewbeads exhibit (more on that to come!). Also, the security at the Americas Mart were serious about the passes we received when checking in. Not only were our passes verified at every check point, but so was Luna’s!

She is ready for action!

She is ready for action!

We “shopped”, pigged out and enjoyed fashion shows all day long. I had so much fun with my Mom and am so glad I made the trip to Atlanta to spend some quality time with her. We truly had an awesome time, and even though it ended with mastitis and a fever fueled drive home, it was worth it. Now, I’m back just in time to unpack and repack for yet another road trip! That’s right we leave tomorrow night to drive all the way to Texas! Yee-haw!

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Cheers!

A Half-Crunchy Mom’s Fav New Product (Giveaway!)

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There’s this term people use when referring to hippy-ish Moms, they say Crunchy Moms. “Crunchy Moms” are the Moms who raise chickens, cloth diaper, grow and make their own everything, swear by all-organic products, home-birth and homeschool, don’t own TV’s and the so on. The nickname is not an insult (I don’t think, anyways), it’s just a trendy new name, and today I’m reviewing a trendy “crunchy” item that most Moms (the crunchy and the non-crunchy) will love.

For the record, I think I’m half-crunchy, half-what’s the opposite of crunchy? Chewy? Can I be crispy? I do use cloth diapers, drive a Prius, make my own baby-food, breastfeed and buy eggs from our neighbors, but I also eat Taco Bell, drink too much Starbucks, binge on Netflix, use paper towels and refuse to give up tampons so I don’t think the “crunchy” society would allow me to join. That’s cool, I prefer to be my own leader anyhow. However, I do love to find a good healthy and organic alternatives to mainstream baby products.

Before our annual beach vacation I began looking for baby-safe beach products, partially because I’m an awesome Mom who wants only the best for my baby and partially because I like any excuse to shop. While searching I immediately came across many all natural baby-safe sunscreens. I was intrigued and decided to try Goddess Garden’s Natural Kid’s Sunscreen. The crunchy half of me LOVES that it is made in a recyclable container, made with organic and all natural ingredients (like aloe vera, sunflower oil, soy beans, zinc oxide, lavender and radish). The consumerist side of me loves that it’s pretty, smells good and does the job.

Luna sporting her new sunscreen while enjoying the sunny deck.

Luna sporting her new sunscreen while enjoying the sunny deck.

I have now tested this sunscreen at the pool, at Holiday World, at the beach and at home. The outcome? Luna has never gotten a sunburn. We did our best to follow the instructions: reapply after 40 minutes of swimming or 2 hours in the sun. We mostly remembered to reapply at the right time, but we aren’t perfect and Luna still never got any sun. We spent ALL day EVERY day in the sun at Hilton Head too. It isn’t exactly like other sunscreens, but Husband an I used the mainstream brands and both got burned… I’m thrilled I used the all natural brand on Luna.

Happy to be on the beach for the first time.

Happy to be on the beach for the first time.

This sunscreen is very watery, so I shake it before squeezing any out to thicken it up a bit. I found it easiest to apply quickly because the longer I took to rub it in the thicker and pastier it became. It left a bit of a white residue on Luna’s skin (mostly when she got wet), but who cares? She’s a baby and it kept her from getting burnt, isn’t full of chemicals and left her skin soft and smooth; that’s much more important to me than having a completely invisible sunscreen. Overall, I am really happy with the product and the company.

pool time!

pool time!

Goddess Garden was created by a Mom who wanted skincare products that would be safe for her daughter who is allergic to chemicals. She saw a need in the market and went for it. She also happens to care about the planet and is just an overall nice and generous person. In fact, she’s so nice that she is giving away a two bottles of her sunscreen to two of you! One of you will get a 6oz bottle of the the Kids Natural Sunscreen SPF 30 ($20 value) and one will receive a 3.4oz bottle ($15 value) of the same.

Daddy-Daughter time in the sun!

Daddy-Daughter time in the sun!

To enter, just follow these 3 little steps!

1. Follow me on my blogFacebook, or Instagram (or all 3!).

2. Follow Goddess Garden on Facebook.

3. And comment below! How old is your child? Or, do you want the sunscreen for you? Either way it will work!

Thanks for entering and good luck to everyone! I’ll randomly select two winners in week, Wednesday August 13th.

Cheers!

The Annual Beach Photos!

You KNOW that anytime you take a family vacation, you’ve GOT to take a big group family photo. It’s just a rule. Then everyone can share it on Facebook, email to their relatives, frame it until you take next year’s photo and years and years from now your kids will look back on it and say “What were we thinking? Why did you dress me like that? Gross!”. In our family we have the ones who love taking the yearly photo and the ones who despise it, but the lovers always win. Obviously I’m on the “lovers” side. I love photos and a I love family traditions. I look forward to looking back at our previous Hilton Head photos and can’t wait to show Luna the ones from her first year!

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We typically spend one evening taking photos of everyone on the beach. Most of us dress up a little and we pose, jump, act silly and take hundreds of small and large group photos as the sun sets (hello magic hour!). The most important one is the big family photo. Every year we get everyone together for the big group picture. This year may have been the biggest year yet.

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My parents were invited to join us (Husband’s side of the family) for the second time and it was perfect! They got to spend so much time with Luna and experience a lot of her “firsts” We are really really grateful that our parents get along. It makes life a hell of a lot easier. I love Husband’s family soooo much so it means a lot to me that my family has become part of his family too.

My parents and me (2012 vs 2014)

My parents and me (2012 vs 2014)

Clearly we have an issue with taking jumping pictures…I know, it’s so 2012. Whatevs.

All of the cousins and their significant others. Some of the coolest people I know, for sure.

All of the cousins and their significant others. Some of the coolest people I know, for sure.

Husband’s family (my family now) is super close and really good about spending quality time together. There are few families I know who get along with their cousins so well. We spent every single night staying up super late playing Murder, Apples to Apples, Scattagories, gossiping and whatnot. Well, to be honest, Luna and I missed a lot of the quality time… apparently infants need to go to bed much earlier than us big kids.

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the ladies

the ladies

Aunt Zoey got some serious quality time with her "Lulu".

Aunt Zoey got some serious quality time with her “Lulu”.

I’m already looking forward to next year’s photos. It’s crazy to think that last year I was ten weeks pregnant and next year Luna will be running around and swimming.

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What are some of your family’s summer and vacation traditions?

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Cheers!